Why do I love wings so much?

This is a question that a lot of people seem to ask me and I never know the answer. The thing I want most is to get a tattoo of wings on my shoulder blades with the lyrics "even if saving you sends me to heaven" from the song Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus above them. Something like this: But without the Maximum Ride logo. Or this:
But without the stitches.

Anyways, back to what I was saying. I finally know the answer to the question people are always asking me; and it came to me as I was sitting on my bed watching Forrest Gump.
I was watching the scene where Jenny and Forrest are hiding in the corn stalks from Jenny's father. Jenny gets on her knees and asks Forrest to pray with her. "Dear God," she says. "Make me a bird, so I can fly far. Far far away from here." and this is where it hit me. All my life I've been wanting to run. Get somewhere far away from my problems. Whether it be from a bully, my parents, my life, love, or anything that simply scares me. With wings, I can simply take off in the slight chance of danger.
Birds also don't have to worry about where they have been. They can simply pick themselves up, spread their wings, and fly off into the distance, not once looking back. I've always liked traveling as well. I guess that's why moving so much doesn't bother me as much as it would some other person. The only reason why I was so upset about moving this time, is that I thought I was in love and I thought I actually had a life there. But those things can be mended. My heart can be put back together and given somebody else to love. I can create a new live with goals and new friends.
So essentially what I'm rambling about is that it's a symbol of me being scared. I was scared of my past in North Carolina, so I ran. I was scared of actually trusting someone and being in love with someone, so I ran. I was scared of my feelings, so I ran. All I do is run. With wings, I can finally soar and not have to be scared. Fear is something that I don't deal well with. I am normally a person that hides their feelings well, but this is one emotion that I cant hide no matter how much I try.
So, for everyone who asked and will ask in the future, essentially the reason why I love wings so much. It signifies one of my greatest flaws. The fact that I always run when I'm scared and the fact that most times when I run, I want to keep going and not come back. As soon as I graduate, I've always told myself that I am going to get as far away from my parents that I can. Now I realize that I'm thinking about doing this for the wrong reason. Before I wanted to run because I can't stand my parents. But now I realize, I want to leave so I can leave the nest and go see the world. I still can't stand my parents, but what teenager doesn't?

With peace and love,
Ashley/Carolynah.