I haven't done one of these in a while, so I felt that I kinda owed one.
(This picture is one of my favorites, though I am a Mets fan.)Today/last night was uneventful as always. Besides the fight my dad and I had (again) at the dinner table. I was another family meal, where everyone was sitting at the table and we were talking about the loan for college that my brother was just granted. My dad then said that he would sign for one for me as well and then he had to ruin it by saying "but I won't as long as you keep wanting to-" and I cut him off with a sharp "I don't want to hear it" he kept going on and I just got up from the table and cleared my plate into the trash and went into my room. This is a constant battle that my father and I have that is never going to be resolved until I actually go to college and get away from this hell hole.
Another thing. I was told that "New Jersey corrupted you. You spent too much time with those hoity-toity people" by my dad earlier because I preferred the book store over the library. I'm sorry for actually wanting to keep the book that I'm reading.
He just pisses me off all the time. People say that I'm going to regret saying it when I'm older, but honestly I don't think so. My brother is twenty one years old and still has resentment towards my father. It's like it pleases him that people are pissed off at him but he acts like they have undying love for him.
Off my resentment towards my father, schools starting soon. On the nineteenth I have to go to this orientation for new kids. The counselor told me that the school has over a hundred new transfers. Not freshman, but people who are in high school but moving to this school. That's crazy. She also told me that this school wasn't filled with a lot of people. So that's good. My old school was filled with people, my claustrophobia kicked in a lot. I hated being in the hallways. Let's hope here its different.
I'm back on the block schedule at this school, which puts all my plans to switch back to my old school down the tubes. I hate the block schedule. I cant sit still for forty five minutes let alone ninety. But whatever. New year, new me.
I tried dying my hair to get rid of all the streaks that the old color left, and got most of them out besides a few on my bangs and honestly I like it. (: Anyways, if I dye my hair anymore, it's going to be darker than the computer I'm typing on. (which is a black compaq presario. :P)
I think I should go to bed now seeing as its already one thirty and I went to bed at three last night and my dad keeps getting on me for sleeping past twelve. :P
Peace, love, and whatever gets you going through the day,
Ashley/Carolynah (:
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